la emoción de la línea plana

y no te quieres, porque estás llena de errores, errores escritos con hache, de tan malos que son. te hieres en el charco de tus desastres, en la imperfección tan compleja, en la normalidad anhelada. anhelo lo mundano, la emoción de línea plana, los latidos constantes, perfectos, sin anomalías, sin arritmias. la constante, la conformidad de las emociones, la no ambición de los sueños, o los sueños bajos, los que sin a penas elevarte del suelo, son alcanzables. el amor bendecido, noble y estático. no quiero ser errática, no por hoy. a veces mi intensidad es desmesurada y me puede, me hiere, me ansía, me deja sin aliento y me desnuda dejándome con sólo el pálpito del corazón asomando por la boca... me trago el terror, lo engullo para que desaparezca, pero regresa a mí... quiero sentir la mitad, quiero bajar el volumen, escuchar la armonía de esta vida, la naturaleza de los que cantan, la radio del vecino, y un par de ladridos de mis pequeños, que me envuelven en lo simple, amar y ser amado, sin más y sin condiciones, con la intensidad justa para emocionarme, y para extrañarles... sin más, sin menos, quiero la justa medida para no sobrevivir, para vivir, sencilla y justamente.

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mimosa: my Springlove's name

m i m o s a

is this time of the year... how light slowly changes its' movements, baths everything it touches with a new sigh... my soul was yearning this dancing too much... light stretches hard to touch every nook of what Winter has left behind... and something changes, it's bringing Spring with it... 

Mimosa...

She awakes my soul. Can't stop marveling myself with its beauty... splendid delicate sprout, like a butterfly kiss, you can spot her as hidden as it can be. I feel as she can heal all the grey Winter thoughts I've had, with her stunning yellow softness, kind paint playing around with light and shadows all over my skin... we had a small affair this weekend and we played around until noon

<3

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Otoño

Otoño nace,

huele a nuevo,

luz distinta 

esta vez, es analógica y digital

carretes de nuevos amaneceres

como toda primera vez, tal vez salgan vacíos, velados, ignorantes dedos la hicieron servir

como todo, y como lo que se acerca, es incierto, no hay garantía en este planeta,

todo se tuerce al 50%... eso es la vida, en todas sus formas,

en las que más me importan, y más cerca están... intentaremos dejar los porcentajes lejos de la vista

por ahora, mi rincón del alma... y a seguir caminando sobre la incerteza

y en busca de la belleza de lo desconocido

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summer mermaid feelings

lightening storms, birds's songs, shaky leaves, thunder, wild dancing under the stars, tones of doubts, lots of love, light shinning, light through the glass, light over my skin, bare skin, deep conversations, present, past, future. changes, friends, silence, coziness, wilderness, slow and fast days, I wanna be a hippie, stars, moon, decisions, memories, frogs, books, wood, country, old, fears, proudness, tears, time, life.

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cross of changes

We came out from the deep

To learn to love, to learn how to live

We came out from the deep

To avoid the mistakes we made

That's why we are here

Enigma (listen here)

Let's believe, that there's something inside us, that in a very peculiar way, makes us go through certain paths of our life.

I'm finding myself in a very rare moment now. I feel as if I've met someone that was hiding inside, still, is afraid of letting itself go, but I can feel its' energy growing inside. I feel old, and at the same time, I feel as young as ever... like if I skipped a chapter of my life, that now is coming back to me, so I can carry on with my path... I spend time looking inside, in the most organic way, trying to reach something that looks like the real me, and I think I can reach it through my heart, through my own strength.

Like a snake gets rid of its' skin when it gets old and doesn't shine anymore and another precious one is growing beneath it. It has to detach of her antique skin scratching itself through branches, rocks and painful earth hands... we're animals too, so, why not, we have to go through pain to reach our true ego... I really have no idea, I'm just trying to enjoy this kind of opening wings, of detaching some fears... I'll fly as high as I can, until I can stand again on my feet...

It is time to break the chains of life
If you follow you will see what's beyond reality
Enigma Beyond Invisible

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dreams becoming

between smiles and tears there is a place I found. One day I decided I must fix this old place, it was all falling a part, just a bit like I am... these last weeks I've been trying to repair, to clean, to restore the beauty it had inside, though everyone has told me I'm crazy. Since this little process began, I've started to feel a bit better inside me. This place, this abandoned hidden place, is in some way being a healing place for me, so I've decided my dreams to become real. It's lost in the middle of nature, it has everything I need, and now that Summer is arriving, I will feel warm inside, so, close to this time it will become my home for a while. I'm really excited, it's a huge challenge for me, maybe I fail, but at least, I'll have made a decision, so, here are my plans, exciting, really exciting and also a bit scary! 

No internet except my smartphone, no tv, just I'll pay attention to what surrounds me... this is still a project, but I'm really willing to make it true. I will be happy to have photoshoots and keep on working!  so please contact me and it will be really lovely to photoshoot you around this place. Also friends and visits I'd be happy to have : )

Now there's no electricity, no water, but I'm hopping to fix it too... yes,it must sound crazy, but I want to follow this instinct I've felt, as nuts as it may sound!

(the picture above it's not from the cottage but also from the mountains)

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